Incredible 10 Days (!!Image-Intensive!!)

Signing off....... Blessed in more ways than one........
RC

Many Thanks... and some more...

First, to the section - Jinhai, Cedric, Guosheng, Michele, Jieying, Firdaus and anyone else I've missed out - & Erina for the surprise last Tues! Pleasantly unexpected, tasty cake and gem of two CDs!

To those who sent messages on phone/FB- thanks lots too!

Last but not least, to Erina who'd spent countless agonising hours trying to make everything turn out well, the staycation, the surprise cupcakes, the bag，the lovely card, all the effort, time and sweat spent - you deserve all the hugs I can possibly give!

*HUGS*

Thank you!

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This coming Friday will see the 4th installment of Da Capo.

How far we have come.

Its gonna be a tiring evening.

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这首耳熟的歌曲，我到了今天 才知道原唱者是谁。忧欢派对似乎当时在台湾挺红的。




数着快乐的闹钟 吵醒做梦的情人
潇洒月光的小径 我们去探险

趁着天堂鸟的翅膀 穿上宝石的衣裳
大声呼唤 尽情的歌唱
世界在旋转

滴答滴答我的爱 心情飞扬的节拍
满天星星眨眼睛 热情地招呼
请别拒绝诱惑 分享这神奇

滴答滴答我的爱 穿越时空的自在
满天星星眨眼睛 好像也在说
爱你

最近也透过忧欢派对间接得知了张克凡的新作品。




过了今晚 再也留不住你
迟早要洗去 我脸颊上的唇印
你和我约定到了明天 谁也不许再提起
你轻轻的留给我 这深深的回忆

甜言蜜语 迟早都会说尽
再多真心 也挡不住黎明来临
这段属于黑夜的爱情 注定要蒸发阳光底
爱上了不该爱的人 连伤心都会来不及

两个世界的代表作品 就是命运
我虽然很有勇气 但却放不下自尊心
时钟滴滴答答滴滴答答 我还盲目的拥抱你
希望把这一刻时间 永远的锁在黑夜里

过了今晚 再也留不住你
迟早要洗去 我脸颊上的唇印
这段属于黑夜的爱情 注定要蒸发阳光底
你轻轻的留给我 这深深的回忆

有时 ，只能叹有缘无分。。。

在此停笔。。。。。。紧张。。。。。。
RC

De-volve (if there's such a word)

Caught up with an old friend.

Its saddening to hear of how situations have developed.

For now, it looks bleak.

Hope everything can pick up henceforth.

Signing off................. Things change, yet stay the same...........
RC

A(nother) Passing of a Talent.

If you have seen these commercials, and have been touched by them, then I guess that's one of her greatest personal achievement she'd ever attained.





Signing off............... The Sudden Fragility that's Life..............
RC

The Match: Some 'Home' news

Thanks to Erina for the company and the photos at last night's training session!

'Home' because the atmosphere tomorrow sure is gonna feel like Pool's the home team. There are 22 names...

"Raddy names squad for Liverpool friendly"

And it appears that our 'Home' team (no, not the police) is not all that ready...

"Lions gear up for Liverpool"

(Nice headline, but read the main story:"...Only about 10 players from SAFFC, Tampines Rovers and Woodlands Wellington were able to make it for the first training session as the rest of the clubs were still in the midst of S.League games...")

10 out of 22.

Hmmmm.

Let's hope it will be a competitive match.

Competitive meaning no Cavalieri howler, no Babel open goal miss, (hopefully) no 10-min show from the main stars (C'mon Rafa, you aren't serious abt the '11-12 mins' thingy are you?), no all-out defence from the 'Home' team.

Get ready to bring the house down then.

Signing off.............. The Kop awaits...........
RC

献给，需要一些安抚的人。

爱 爱
它已经困住我 何以竟找到我
透不出一点光 在刹那间发生
能够指引找到出口 好比眼里闪过的火
泪 你
它匆匆流干我 从我心中经过
内心所有坚强 让我彻底无助
无法可想无话可说 真的叫我非爱不可

想要伴着你 愿伴着你
又怕被操纵 就是没自我
我想问为什么 亦未问为什么
却问不出口 愿永远疯魔
我装得很冷漠 就是在玩弄我
却只是受尽折磨 亦自愿受着过错
害怕苦与罪 道别话未说
却很难回头 亦尽量去拖

谁看出这样的女人 呈献出一切去求你
内心里是脆弱 这一晚陪伴我
一半梦 一半苦涩 只需当打发时间
一生都寂寞 别疑虑太多
能不能贪点时间 留住这一个夜晚

换一些感动 在明日重播
承认吧我也 陪伴我一世
需要更多的欢乐 是这首爱的挽歌
睡吧 世间
白天的伪装 一切也无法

剩下来是脆弱 去抵抗时日过
你的笑你的眼光 不管真心跟瞒骗
快把我掩没 亦同样结果
明白后又能 来吧再一次
如何 不愿意放纵 被你欺骗未为过
忍不住也要忍着 明日我一个夜里
去唱这首哀歌 再哼这首挽歌
（谁懂我）（没痛楚）

幸福的泡沫 想得很清楚
永远难捉摸 真爱难负荷
彼此痛苦都太多 需要痛苦都太多
男人的温柔 今宵可不可
来去像一阵风无须要太清楚
不要存心敷愆我 只要刹那间结果
我不是弱者 若是玩弄我
只求面对自我 唯求并未揭破
痛也痛得很光荣 愿承认我是很傻
我只想摆脱 愿热烈渡过
所有的脆弱 梦幻内渡过
把一些自尊留给我 。。。未计较终会留下我。。。

我，不是很会说些平复情绪的话。

觉得有时候一首歌曲的微妙就在于它能舒缓人心的潜能。

尤其是当独自一人面对漫长黑夜的时候。

经典九零年代中的Sammi情歌。

不管是拿来压惊，入眠，触动，疗伤。

听一听。

希望，会觉得好一点。

在此停笔。。。。。。大家都有脆弱之时。。。。。。
RC

About Britain's Got Talent and My First Ever...

By now, its hard not to notice the Susan Boyle phenomenon.

When I first saw the video however, the hosts were the ones that caught my attention.

Ant & Dec! PJ & Duncan!

My first ever CD!


Introduction to 90s Bubblegum Pop 1101E - Eternal Love:



Its just so unbelievable that this song can be heard every single night on the same radio programme for almost 2 years(??) 'cos there would be somebody who would have written in to request for this song. In retrospect, its totally cheesy, and probably implicitly pink, but the kick for me probably lies in the melody of the chorus.

The album will probably rank up as one of my worse buys in terms of the quality of songs, but it will always have that reserved place in my memory.

How these two lads have grown...


Truthfully speaking, they do make better hosts than singers..........

Signing off............... Watch us wreck the mic, PSYCHE..........
RC

Thick-and-Thin-in-Green

Machiam become our standard activity after every briefing.

These people make up part of the many that have made the annual obligations much more enjoyable and less depressing.

What is the self without others?

Signing off................ The cycle is ending................
RC

那一夜，我到了眷村一趟。。。

当历史变得主观，变得个人化，那还是历史吗？

在这变化迅速的年代，私下最贴心的回忆，还经得起大时代的变迁吗？

我们周围还存有几个类似老赵这种乐于助人的品种呢？

上一代的牵挂，就是下一代的包袱吗？

看来，我是个问题男孩。

但是，能不想着这些问题吗？

眷村的历史，精神，庆幸有了《宝岛一村》还有王制作人的纪录片与书籍把一切记载下来。不知何时轮得到他人来帮我那旧住处写本书或是什么类似之类的。。。

记得，那时看了《消逝的记忆》后，回到家来问妈是否还记得十八英里老家在那儿，从她那答案可听得出她对少年回忆的迷茫，失落，遗憾。想必她是多么的能回到童年时的住所，或者是寻找第一次见到爸爸的那一棵榕树（哈哈！这是虚构的！），又可能或者是下课后帮忙外婆卖“Tikkam”的时光。。。现在，就像妈说的，要找都找不到，不知从何着手，因为根本都认不出地方了。。。

当初，上万个像老赵的军人带着家眷和“旅游”，“暂住”的心情，来到了宝岛，从“想回家”，到“思念家”，最后变成“这就是家”。想到自己搬到新住址也快一年了，说好要回去旧住址“拜访”，但是老家那儿已被当局封锁了。真希望老家不会变得面目全非，还想几十年后能介绍一个老头子的老家给自己的下一代（和下下一代）看看嘞！

这一夜，我没落泪。前半场，笑得放纵，下半场，却有几分的无奈。尤其是子康与如云阿姨重逢时，子康问到她这些年来过得如何，如云阿姨的那一句“都快过完啦！”逗得全场笑声连连，自己在心里却有那种又刺又酸的感觉。还有的就是大牛与大毛因周遭环境所带来的背负而间接迫使自己放弃对最初的梦想，最后各自走出了眷村，上了人生这条道路，只是对象已不是彼此。

戏里的角色或许通通都是composite figures，但是，不难想象，眷村里的每一个人都因搬迁到眷村而失去过一些对自己很重要的东西。"Move on" ／“放下”区区两个字，一个词，其中的难度与艰苦，一出两百分钟的舞台剧也只能传达这么多的情感。对自己而言，《宝》提醒了自己因改变而所付出的代价；换来的有苦，有甜，但一切已不能回归原状。

最重要的，或许就是要快乐吧；就算是一个人，也要快乐！



每个人都有一个“天津包子”！＝Ｄ

在此停笔了。。。。。谢了，华艺Kaki。。。。。
RC

(Non-)Christmas News outside 1 22 N, 103 48 E

From The Straits Times (Online - available here.) [Ed: Yes, it looks like me 'selling out' by reading stuff from the ST. But this headline grabbed my attention. Like GRABBED.]

(Headline) Californian lesbian gang-raped (Dec 23 2008)

SAN FRANCISCO - A WOMAN was taunted for being a lesbian, repeatedly raped by four men and left naked outside an abandoned apartment building, authorities said.

Detectives say the 28-year-old victim was attacked Dec 13 after she got out of her car in Richmond, in the San Francisco Bay area.

'It just pushes it beyond fathomable,' said Richmond police Lt Mark Gagan on Monday. 'The level of trauma - physical and emotional - this victim has suffered is extreme.' Authorities are characterizing the attack as a hate crime.

Mr Gagan said the victim lived openly with a female partner and had a rainbow flag sticker on her car.

The 45-minute attack began when one of the men approached the woman as she crossed the street, struck her with a blunt object, ordered her to undress and sexually assaulted her with the help of the other men.

When the group saw another person approaching, they forced the victim back into her car and took her to a burned-out apartment building, where she was raped again inside and outside the vehicle.

The assailants took her wallet and drove off in her car. Officers found the car abandoned two days later.

Gay rights advocates note that hate crimes based on sexual orientation have increased nationwide. There were 1,415 such crimes in 2006 and 1,460 in 2007, both times making up about 16 per cent of the total, according to the FBI.

Avy Skolnik, a coordinator with the New York-based National Coalition of Anti-Violence Programs, noted that gay, lesbian and transgender crime victims may be more reluctant than heterosexual victims to contact police.

He also said the group plans to analyse hate crime data to see whether fluctuations may be related to the gay marriage bans that appeared on ballots this year in California, Arizona and Florida.

'Any time there is an anti-LGBT initiative, we tend to see spikes both in the numbers and the severity of attacks,' he said.

'People feel this extra entitlement to act out their prejudice.' -- AP

Is there even a need to enact your homophobic prejudices for all to see, to experience?

The scariest things about homosexuality are homophobes themselves.

I cannot fathom.

Signing off........... Its Christmas - Can you forgive?..............
RC

把它留给自己

Doing activities that one normally doesn't have time nor opportunity to do so, and doing them with good company.

It made Christmas 2008 all the more unique, livelier and fun!

And more bearable. Despite.

Thanks =)


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我了解 － 显然的，你还笑得不够。

你也够执著的。

也不错 － 至少间接学会了快速地以大局为重，把它都放在身后。

夜深人静后，才来再和你交战。


一。

独。

Signing off.............. 最后，还是会。。。。。。。。
RC

Grey

First ever bare + sensual encounter with a stranger.

I swear I'd been all professional about it, right up to the point when I fell asleep.

It'd been pretty enjoyable, but god knows what I would have written here if I'd chosen Polynesian over Swedish........

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For the better of 40 hours, I basked in the company of old friends, soaking in the adventures into an unfamiliar land and pretending that its gonna last forever. All those talk about travelling abroad with friends during those secondary school days, I've finally done it!

The Now says that there's 2 weeks left in 2008.

Signing off............. Forecast: Grey.............
RC

The Debts of certain XY-s

Having the usual annual getaway (1/26 of the year).

Fully-sponsored and paid for, meals and accommodation included, free workouts guaranteed.

Oh, and back to nature - totally sweet. Just have to make sure that I'd packed enough of everything.

Looking forward to the chill-laxative sessions with the rest after sunset! Maybe a game or two of hardcourt kick-about!

I really REALLY can't hide my sense of anticipation and excitement!

I'M SERIOUS! (SIC!)

RLY!

In the meantime, since I can't catch them here over the next couple of days, I shall have to make do with this...


Signing off............... A Change will do You Good (or Not).................
RC

np

It's pretty entertaining to engage in self-mockery.

Hope its all really for now - haha!

The true purpose of the Internet:



This is what being a true diehard IS about (via 'Shirley'):



Me thinks me future is, er, faster Internet.....

Signing off.............Can't pay the bills, have no skills............
RC

噢MY天！

《宝岛一村》要来啦！赖声川大导演又要来啦！


“這是一個生命故事、歷史故事，也是快樂又動人的故事。”

在上个星期的某一天，看到了赖大导演，王伟忠制作人与《宝岛一村》的一些演员上了《康熙》，宣传这部新的舞台剧。

从年初搬了家，到最近看了《悄逝的记忆》后，不但对于属于自己的历史有了更深的兴趣，更多更丰富的情怀，也对于他人如何释怀与曾经属于他们自己一部分的事物和经历告别，产生了兴趣。

月底有一个《海角七号》，明年初就有这个《宝岛一村》。

前晚，在表落格上留言，问了这出戏是否会搬来在华艺节上演。

几个小时前，打开了电邮邮箱，看到了这份电邮：

【表演工作坊】 已在文章 "加演了！加演了！！" 上留下新的意見：

寶島一村也會去新加坡演出喔
在濱海藝術中心
時間是2009年2月7-8
歡迎大家來看戲喔!!!

張貼意見。

取消訂閱此文章的意見。

由 【表演工作坊】 於 2008/11/14 上午 9:00 張貼在 表演工作坊

＊兴奋！＊

那个华艺节的主办当局也真是的！ 迟迟还没发出关于明年华艺节的风声！这次的环球金融危机的影响真是处处都感受得到嘞！

在这就帮表演工作坊预先作点宣传！

一次舞台剧大导演和综艺界名牌制作人的合作！

一部关于台湾本土文化资产的戏剧。一部能让外人了解台湾眷村的历史与演变。

哎呀，我也不知该说什么－自己去网站慢慢看hor?

（吖，我感觉近年来我不知觉地把自己“台湾化”啦！）

SISTIC，几时开始售票啊？！？！

在此停笔。。。。。。不能睡，也不可以睡。。。。。。。
RC

Solace in Familiarity

Was chatting with a good friend online.

I just had a small revelation I realized,
shit like this happens everyday to everyone
or rather to nobodies in the world

and quite fascinating
imagine
somewhere, someone is going through the same thing as you are
so someone kinda understands how you feel

but the weird thing is
you'll like that someone to be a person you know
so you'll get some proximity comfort?

Barely a while later, I 'uncovered' someone.

Therein lies the conundrum(s?).

Signing off............ All of us, all the best............
RC

不要无恶不作

妈说，是先人所犯的业障，所以，后一代必须肩负起偿还这些“债务”的责任。

听起来，还是个蛮合逻辑，蛮理所当然的解释。

在此停笔。。。。。。等着它们所有被原谅。。。。。。
RC

ehcuaG

The search for that "guitar" is elusive for some, easy for others, and eternal for some more.

That "guitar" that others might despise, abhor, reject - but I know what meanings it hold for me.

She proved it - or else we would have been deprived of her folksy and alternative melodies that the masses' ears have greatly welcomed after the tirade of seemingly trash muzik.

What is that guitar?

Sometimes, I yearn for that kind of structured-ness.

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Watched another episode of ACI on NatGeo in the wee hours.

Watching the reenactment of Aeroperú Flight 603's last moments had initially filled me with some distraught and bewilderment - how could a descent of nearly 10,000 feet, in 20+ mins, go unnoticed by the pilots?

Naturally, there were a whole bunch of factors involved - a night flight over sea with no visible target of reference, the malfunctioning of various equipment on board, the (mis)information from the Lima traffic control tower (through no fault of the air traffic controller).

Ultimately, it boiled down to a piece of adhesive tape no larger than a regular-sized notebook over the static boards that some ground maintenance crew had forgotten to remove before the flight resumed its journey from Peru to Chile. In short, the tape simply caused the various instruments of the plane to behave weirdly and produce various erroneous messages to both the pilots and the control tower back in Lima, when the plane itself had no major problems. The pilots attempted a 'blind' descent to land back at Lima, realised too late that they were above water, and attempted a late climb back up.

The plane went down into the Pacific half an hour after it had taken off from the Lima airport.

It seemed almost retrospectively prophetic to have caught that show.

Signing off............... 喝一口意识换安眠几分.............
RC

2 in 8 ain't that bad for a start.

RC

虽然没有美好的分离。。。

N年前。。。

“你们中一生要去观看比赛吗？”

几年 + （N年前） 后。。。

-已经忘了那时说了什么，但那时在地铁上。。。-

2000/2002年。。。

-你回来母校，我也在场。。。-

2006年。。。

-我只能说，好巧。-

现在。。。。。

期待你或许有一天能回到母校，带领她，就像你带领大家一样，攀越到另一个境界，一个无法想象的境界。

在此停笔。。。。。。Never, Say Goodbye。。。。。。。
RC